Sunday, April 8, 2018

So this moderation thing...

So I have an issue with “moderation”. 

The last few weeks I’ve been wearing myself out mentally then going to smash my bags at the gym, all while cutting back on calories. Seems I kinda ran myself in the ground. So, I decided to take a week off. Spend time reading, writing, sketching and not obsessing over everything I ate. It was nice but I feel like I put on 50lbs and generally feel worse than when I decided to take some time off. Is that even possible. Is this some weird hurdle that I need to get over and will then start to feel normal?

Back to the gym I go. I short lift then onto the bike for some cardio...then a core workout when I got home...because, you know, I hate myself of course. Let’s see if I can find some balance this time.